Chapter 42
Handed me as if had taken him by surprise. Then he smiled and shook his head.
“I should have expected you to not shy away from the tough conversations,” he said.
“I don’t know about that, I unally try to avoid direct confrontations. But this thing between un. I like it and I get that this thing with Simon will affect our relationship. But I don’t want us to ignore it just because it mukuen un uneasy” I tried to explain Hunter had stood up and taken out plates to the dishwasher. But he walked back to me and stood beside the barstool I was sitting on.
“You’re right, we shouldn’t let things go unspoken. They will just fester,” he agreed and gave me a light kiss. It was barely a grace on our lips. But it was the first kiss we had shared siner DIE menting and it made it sweet. “And I appreciate that you have given me time to understand all of this,” he added.
I’m willing to give you more time. It’s not like I’m in a hurry. I just want us to be open about it. If you need more time, then take it and let me know when you feel okay to talk about it,” I uld let my hand go up to his cheek and eat there. I couldn’t remember being this brave around a man ever balam. I never took initiative. But as I unter’s board tickle my palm, I realbed it was because I hadn’t bend to lose any of the other men. Sure, I didn’t want them to leave. But with Hunter I could already feel that if he left, it would break me in ways I didn’t want to think about. Hanter placed his hand on top of mine, trapping it against his. He turned and kissed my palm.
“I don’t need more time,” he told me “But I’m afraid that the things I think med to talk about sell cause you pain, I don’t want that,” he explained. I tried to smile, but failed. He was right. There were things needed to talk about and lows it would hurt, and be embarrassing. Some of those things I didn’t like to speak about, or think about. Some of them I had only ever told Wutat some of them I hadn’t even told him.
“it will be okay. I sell marview and you sell be there. It will be fine, I read him. He looked serious and nodded.
“How about we have this evenation on the car?” he asked. I nodded and he took my hand and we walked . We sat close, each of existing so we could face each other. My hands were in my lap, playing with the hem of my top. Hunted along the hark nest and when he saw how moul I was, he caressed my cheek with his thumb. “I know my son isn’t a good mon Thave had my sugpkins about that for a while. You head And contrary to what he believes, he lain’t been a good at covering up how he forks about Simon. But despite telling myself I wouldn’t, I have had a blind spot on how had it really in,” Hunter stated. He paused and looked nine. It looked like he was searching for something. “You are the only one I know that has seen the dark ride of her and is willing to tell me about Would you tell me about your relationship with him?” he asked. I looked at him
“Which puts do you want to know of awering
All of it. No graphic details, but I need to understand how ya kate him.”
“Are you sue? tr’s not a pleasant pecture, I warned hom
“Fuck,” he and rubbed the hand over his
“True. I’m no arking strich,hed and he looked to be beading. I had to smile at the picture his statement summoned in my mind. The Indook a deep breath and started telling him about how Strion and I mat, how we started dating and Witor was the only one of my friends that had told me Sinun was no Food
“old me hacky 1 win that someone like Simon wanted to date. I don’t think they meant anything bad when they said it. But I already had some issues with my self-
grand the image stark with believed them wien they said I had hit the jackpot and that I would never find anyorest good at him apin, I told Hunter. I was too hard to look at him, so I looked at my hands while I let the merries food overr, “Il I’m being honest with myself, my interest in Sition died quickly after we started dating. But if this was a good as I was going to ges. I told myself im was better to stay. At least I won’t alone. When he asked me to monty him I said yes, because that was what I was supposed to do. Wictor gut so angry when I told him. If it wait for the fact I think he was afraid for me, I think he would have stopped speaking to me.”
“Was So hurting you?” Hartered and fucked my hair and my car, I show my head.
“hot at that point. Well, phycally. He had quickly figured out my weak spots and when I disagreed with him of didn’t do as he wanted, he would push all the buttons he knew to make me foal sell and worthless, He was good at it. It didn’t help that his mother used every opportunity to tell me that I wasn’t good enough for him and that I should be grateful he was even looking my
“Mandy can be
can be a bitch,” Hunter agreed to my unspoken words. It made my mouth gall
was to be taken as seriously as physical violence. He was right, and it was
So he was hurting you for the anterom. He said it like the hurt Simon had caused me at the beginning was to be t Tire hung how chou he took the star
“Yes. As we got car to the wedding. I tried unspecting he had swore else. Wictor had tried its ll me from the start that Sinan’t faithful, But I didn’t want to listen. The work after we pot mamed a women wat bend to detailing her ongoing affair with Simon. There were pictures and croonshots of texts. She was pissed he had got married, 1 gurus she thought he would Juwe me for her. I don’t know if she wanted to take revenge on it, or un Simon, or both. Det I had to fare crality I confronted Simon when he got home. We argued and for the fast time he slipped as the face. I was so shocked. I didn’t know what to do. I had some experience with physical hose from my days in foster care. Simon in this but he didn’t care. I reverted to rey old coping mechanie and withdrew into mell. The next day Sins, he told he had to clap me is I was getting hysterical, He had only been seeing this woman because he ed our upcoming wedding. He would never do it again. beloved him Uncil a couple of months later when someone sent me a DM on Instagrams. And we did the same thing all over again. After the third tipped confronting Sinn, it just ended with him hurting me.” I paused and needed a moment to collect myself. I felt vulnerable enough, I didn’t want to cry,
you want to step? We can do something else luster–asked me and led my fare to look at him.
1 got it all out,” I told him
house so brave and strong Hara, hold to smile and shook my he
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Te really not. Fry weak and rules,” I abjected.
*You really aren’t,” he said, leaning lower and placing a kiss on my read
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Chapter 42
unway. That was my life for almost two yours. Son and Mandy had convinced me to drop out of school when we got married. Simen had graduated and had started his business and they Mil the he needed me to be the wife that took care of him, or hose that Rich ned but let us stay in, and just focus on Simon Mandy added chihen into the picture, Hut Siruusu noves wanted.
He would beli me he was to young, he shouldn’t have to deal with things like that. And he told me I would be a terrible mother, Ampone with my upbringing would be.” I had to stop again to take a deep breath. Some things hart more than others.
Thank
now that is bullahut. “Too would be an amazing mother,” Hunter told me.
162, I saved. Trying to full my purpose as the perfect housewife that had dinner ready, the house clean and I even took Mandy’s nasty remarks about me being infertile, even if it was has won that made sure there would be no children. Most of my friends had stopped hanging out with me. Saam asked what else I expected. I was boring, lazy and a had friend. There sder I was losing trends. The only one that stayed was Wictor. He and Simon never got along which meant I never got to spend much time with him. But I know he was there if I needed
y you have turn.” Hunter told me.
- He has saved my mode
How did you find th
find the strength to leave Simon?” Hunter asked. I was happy he didn’t ask why I stayed.
Lou leave just after our two year anniverary. It was summer and we had rented a cabin by a lake with two other couples woes. The men were friends with Sinson and the women and I mere acquaintances. Viehung out because the man tid. By that time they were the only friends I had beside Wictor. I was going to make dessert for dinner and wanted to pick some blueberries ta
As I was walking towards the woods I heard notes from the shed that was a little to the side of the cabin. I went to see what the noise was
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Lashawndra Dejohnette
God. Simon is such a POS. At this point I’m just waiting for someone to say something along the lines of “Give that man a child he can be proud of
